Depersonalization Disorder

[FarmLady1967]

I just woke up a few months ago and everything was different. I suddenly felt disconnected with my own body and emotions. Every day I feel like I'm watching a movie about myself, I don't feel attached to myself anymore. I feel like when painful things happen, the pain is not quite as intense but also when I experience joy, it's also not as intense. I feel numb. I don't really know what to think about this disorder, I wonder if it will ever go away or do I really want it to? I grew up in an abusive family and was abused by all the men in my past, I lost my only 2 daughters at a young age and in February I lost my 90 year old mother...soon after that is when I realized I suffer with Depersonalization Disorder. Is there anyone else out there that suffers with this to?? Thank you for reading my post.