S. O. S. Dead end. I hate home, i hate my accommodation. Here's hell, i just arrived, and the only good thing is mom's not here and she

[Against_the_current]

Called and ruined it.I arrived at this hell of a place and mom managed to call me and annoy me even here. And my laptop isn't here and the guy who could help me with a new one isn't here and it's hot like sauna because it's a hot city and im on the ceiling and the hot water tab was leaking and i come here, panic, travelled and felt uneasy, and she manages to pull my strings again (being away from her was the only good thing and she ruined it) said "I've travelled too","it's hot too". It's always "me too but worse" and "find a better accomodation. YOU DO NOTHING ALL DAY". It's always the"you do nothing all day". Trust me i tried to find a better place but it's terrible and i have to pay deposit, commission and rent so 3x rent and she was like"don't you pay it now". Like no, you know nothing and give me advice. And then "stay there then!" I don't even know when dad will stop my money and she wants me to get 3x rent but how am i supposed to tell her "your ex has a new family and won't pay for me anymore and i can't work because you made me mentally ill and i should have studied 2 years but grandpa convinced me to study here to become a lecturer but i can't be a lecturer without 3 years if PhD, 4k tuition and i don't have nerves for PhD". Please save me im litterary in hell. "Then stay there","you do nothing ", "search for a new place", "make the landlord repair it", "i travelled too and i had it worse". Yes but you rested and im just arriving. Only she has emotions, only she can suffer. Ironically she says"i have emotions too, im human too, im not made of steel". Aaghhggghhh. I hate hate hate hateeeee both places. They're literal hells - one smells and is hot like hell and the other one has S@tan. Can't she understand that im not so lazy and I've tried?! Brokers are evil and make me puke. I don't have enough money to move out or pay rent for a better place. The landlord is nasty and I don't want him through my stuff and i haven't payed electricity because he didn't tell me every month, he just stacked it. And dad might stop giving me money for this rent what comes to a better one. And it's tiring having anxiety and travelling 3 hours and coming to a place you dread, i needed some time to recover and get fresh air in but she called to see if i arrrived. And don't get me started on the taxi. Can't anyone see im suffering?!

[SoporRose]

We see you're suffering, if that helps. I hope you find a way out.