I hate who I am...

[Starlove]

Hi everyone

I know I am not the cup of tea for many. I know I am open with my opinions about human life and how important it is to be loved and respected by everyone. I know I have a strong personality and temperament in where I do not back down if I am setting my opinion. And, I also invite opinions from others as long as there is respect. I just don't know why I get anxious about not being liked or being invited.

I hate that I have opinions. I hate that I have a laugh that is heard by others. I hate that I am loud. I hate to be mistreated and I get silent when that happens. I hate that I care about this too much. I hate to believe I care too much about what others think of me. I wish I was heartless and not give an flying F. I hate myself for caring about what others think of me. I hate that I posted here looking for answers when my life is not bad.

[LOTR2017]

No matter who you are or how your life is sometimes there is something innate in us that wants more change something about ourselves. That is not bad and is very natural. I am a quiet person, but I appreciate the ones that do have opinions. Sometimes even a different opinion solidifies my opinion or helps change it. You are uniquely you and yes sometimes that will rub people the wrong way, but all you can focus on is you. The only one you are responsible for is you. I don't know if this will help you. I hope it does.

[Starlove in reply to LOTR2017]

Hi

Thank you! I often write here as a form of catharsis to blog about the thoughts that consume me at times. I appreciate the support and your kind words.