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[Igneousbonsai]

I think I may need a higher level of care and that’s scary. I dont want to put my life on hold and I dont know what to do.

[Hidden]

Hey girl🤍I hear you. I thought I was the only one who felt this way. I have been going to therapy for just over a year, and sometimes I feel like I make no progress at all. I started to realize it’s sometimes day by day, week by week or maybe healing is just ongoing. I always wonder if I need more advanced support. I’ve often felt so lost and confused. When you mean higher level of care, is it emotional support you mean? 🙏🏽🤍💎

[Igneousbonsai in reply to Hidden]

Its really hard sometimes when the progress is so minimal. Its also sad that regression is a thing. When I say higher level of care I guess im talking about hospitalization. Im just scared to do that though

[Hidden in reply to Igneousbonsai]

I once called 911 because I had a panick attack. I asked them if it would cost anything but I think only if I got in the ambulance/vehicle and physically rode to the hospital. The ambulance guy checked my blood pressure at no cost and I returned to my apartment. I’m not sure if it varies by state but it doesn’t hurt to call and ask someone or a doctor 🙏🏽🤍I have no shame in saying I have called 911 to ask them whether I was having an emergency or needed extra help just the fact they were a call away

[sunshinefan]

That is a hard call. I have been hospitalized four times in the last two years and in respite once. Plus I have done partial hospitalization programs. I always feel guilty for putting my life on hold, but if you are feeling that way, you might need to go somewhere. It is scary, but I found all of them to be helpful and I ultimately feel better after going.

[Igneousbonsai in reply to sunshinefan]

Its a really hard call for me. The last couple of days have been more than difficult and I have had severe SI for 4 days now and its just getting harder and harder. Im not sure what to do. Can i ask you were your hold voluntary? How did it feel coming out of the hospital? Did it help?