How to Feel OK When Your Medication Isn't Right

[GhostKitty]

Since the beginning on September I've been through some big med changes (some by choice and others not so much, stupid insurance companies) and well I'm just very much not ok. But I need to feel marginally ok for my sake, my bfs sake, and for my jobs sake. I thought these new side effects were going to go away with time or maybe it was the new meds mixed with my normal hormonal cycles (that time of the month), but it's just awful and I don't know how much longer I can deal with this.

The side effects I'm dealing with is being easily and extremely agitated and overstimulation (? I think?). Little things can set me off into a deep spiral. Something as simple as a my clothes clinging to me weird, a cat meow or squeaky ear piercing bark just makes me so angry and sets my into a terrible spiral that involves crying. Feelings and thoughts can trigger it too like embarrassment, shame, self loathing, etc. And once it gets started it is so so hard to stop. I'm tired of it and just want it to stop. But I can't see my psychiatrist until Tuesday (4 days away). It feel like an eternity. Trying to get through a single day is hard enough let alone 4. Plus the time I'm stuck waiting for the new medication change to actually start working which can take weeks. WEEKS. How am I going to get through weeks of feeling like garbage? How am I going to work like this?

I could try for FMLA but that could take a month or 2 to maybe be approved. Plus "getting out of the house is good for you!" I can't just spend a month or more, while getting my meds in order, at home but I don't think I'll be able to work. So what the heck am I supposed to do?? And I cant afford the therapy I would most definitely need if I'm not making any money. How am I supposed to do this?!?

*Edit* I just don't know where to go from here. I feel stuck like there is no way out. I'm losing hope and I'm losing it fast. I see no way forward.

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so sorry you're going through this. im feeling the exact same way. my meds were switched in mid august and it's been pure hell ever since. it's rough but try to hang in there. you'll get through this. it's been almost 8 weeks for me and im just starting to sort of feel some relief. tell your psychiatrist everything. maybe try going to a peer support group or calling a crisis line. having someone to talk to who knows exactly what youre going through is a huge help.