just rambling

[Blugirl76]

when he says…. You don’t have anything to worry about and yet I see certain things that make me question…. He says he’s being honest and faithful, but I have a nagging feeling in my gut he is talking to and or seeing someone else. We have had trouble in the past where he’s been caught talking to someone else bc he said I wasn’t giving him what he needed. Ever since I make a point to make time for intimacy even with my health issues. But yet, that ugly anxiety, that negative voice in my head saying I’m not good enough, I’m not enough. I’ve seen the girls he talked to. I’m not like them and think is that what he wants? Ugh… why can’t I stop being my worst enemy. I tend to be a overthinker especially when he leaves the house and doesn’t ask if I wanna come alone 😔

[Dolphin14]

Welcome to the community.

Overthinking gets many of us into trouble. I think communication is key. It sounds like you are trying.

Can you ask if you can go with him when he goes out? I'm not sure how you feel about that.

Working on our own issues first is so important. Are you in therapy?

Wishing you the best

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[Blugirl76 in reply to Dolphin14]

I usually don’t have to ask to go with him Because he always asks me if I want to come along. This time he did not which makes me wonder why.

I have been in therapy before, it really didn’t help bc the mental health facilities near me aren’t that great.

[Dolphin14 in reply to Blugirl76]

I can understand why you would be suspicious then. That makes sense

It's sad that many areas don't have quality mental health services

I'm sorry you are going through all this. I hope things turn around for you

[Blugirl76]

I appreciate your kindness, thank you for taking the time to talk with me