Need help.

[Badbadbeads]

Hi everyone. I'm new here and hoping for support for depression. Hope all is well.

[CLB1125]

welcome 👋

[Badbadbeads in reply to CLB1125]

Thank you. I need to feel connected, assuming that's the right word. I have no family and the few friends I have are in bad shape too. I have a therapist who has helped me, but I haven't seen her in months. I'm just so tired. I didn't sleep well last night. But I'm much better today than a month ago. I wondered if I was suicidal.

[CLB1125 in reply to Badbadbeads]

i have found some very nice people here. Just having someone to listen helps. I am seeing most of us with depression are tired. Physically and mentally.

[Tealpillow in reply to Badbadbeads]

I’ve learned there are two types of suicidal ideation - active and rumination. Personally, I have rumination where I just don’t feel like living sometimes, but I don’t actually have any plans or intentions to act. My kids keep me grounded in that regard.

In the past I was in the other category and ended up being hospitalized. It was traumatizing and I don’t recommend it!!

You mentioned therapy which is wonderful. Have you also considered getting on an antidepressant?

[Badbadbeads in reply to Tealpillow]

I'm going back to therapy. I have never felt suicidal before.

[Tealpillow in reply to Badbadbeads]

It’s a scary feeling, please know it will pass eventually. Good on you for recognizing what’s going on and reaching out for help. That alone is half the battle. Sending you grounding, support, and comfort!

[Badbadbeads in reply to Tealpillow]

Hi, I just called my therapist for an appointment. She's very good. I'd like to know more about antidepressants because everything I've heard is pretty negative. I have an appointment with my doctor in August.

[Tealpillow in reply to Badbadbeads]

The medication journey is both good and bad. The medications do have side effects when you start them (for me it was tiredness, dizzy, headaches for a few weeks) but once the side effects go away it’s like a huge breath of relief. I feel more resilient, thoughtful, and engaged in life again. Depression and anxiety do have biological connections and our brains work differently from regular folks so medication is part of the journey for most of us. I wouldn’t be here without my Zoloft. Sometimes life stressors bring on the depression/anxiety but overall, medication has kept it at bay which has been a blessing for me.

Keep us updated on your journey

[bethelbee]

Hi and welcome! I am 68 and have been dealing with depression and anxiety my entire adult life. Presently doing well after my last round of TMS completed a year and a half ago, but have had major challenges over the decades. It's always nice to share experiences with those who truly understand.

[Badbadbeads in reply to bethelbee]

Thank you so much.

[designguy]

Hello and welcome to the group, it can definitely feel good to know you aren't alone and have a place to share and connect.

[Badbadbeads in reply to designguy]

Thank you so much.

[Marysblue]

Welcome. I don't have hardly any family and like you said, my friends have mental deficits too so not much help and sometimes they hurt me unintentally. I often isolate for days when it gets too much. It's great to have this community here to reach out to.

[Badbadbeads in reply to Marysblue]

I agree. Thank you.