Heart versus Head

[Cimmy]

here I am sitting here panicking, I’m going to my sons, it’s his birthday BUT he lives about 1 1/2 hours drive away. I so want to be there for him but the fear of the journey is sneaking in my thoughts. It’s such a battle. And to add to it his partner has booked us all into a restaurant for lunch when she knows how I feel about going out. I’m making myself panic and feel like I should cancel but I adore my son and want to see him. What am I going to do?, well I’m going but will I survive it, all I can think about is going, getting there, seeing him, going out to lunch and getting home. Why is this so hard. Anxiety give me a break please. I know this post doesn’t really make sense but I needed to write things down to calm things down. I just feel so weak and stupid. It’s only a visit to my sons so why do I feel so bad. Thanks for reading my rambling post

[Dolphin14]

I know how you are feeling. The cycle you described is one I've been through many times.

The scenario that comes to mind is in regards to vacations, especially when flying. Once I knew I was going anxiety ramped. Once I got there I just wanted it over. Fear ruined me.

I have anxiety thinking about your day. I know it's going to be hard. My hope is you can try and have some time to live in the moment and enjoy your son. I think back and I'm so sad because I lost so much.

I will be thinking of you. Please be careful driving

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