I have lost everyone

[Chase888]

Before lockdown I had a life. Even though I suffer from anxiety I had a voluntary job which I loved. My boyfriend was still alive and I was friends with his son who lived far from his dad.

My boyfriend died and 2years later his son took his own life.

A person phoned me cos I had texted them and says "I keep hearing bad news ".

I felt like saying hang up then.

I know that I have to make new friends but I have bad anxiety and sometimes don't go out for 3 days.

I have lost hope.

[Agora1]

Dearest Chase, you have lost a lot in life. I am so truly sorry for these losses.

Sometimes life can be so cruel but you must give yourself time to grieve.

Have you obtained grief therapy? *either with a counselor or group. It could help.

As long as there is a breath in us, we cannot give up hope. It may be only baby steps

but getting back out in the world is important to us humans. We need to see the sun,

the sky and feel the wind on our face in order to feel alive again.

Eventually finding another volunteer job will make you feel

worthwhile again. Being here on this caring site will allow you to

grieve with others who find themselves lost and hopeless.

Sending you a warm hug. Know that I care xx