this weekend was VERY stressful...

[coolkitty1934]

saturday i started my lifeguard shift at 10 am where there was a mass swim instruction time for 2 hours with over 50 people in the pool and lots of parents standing on the outside it was too many people,too loud,and very humid(the pool is inside and the ventilation is broken at the moment).i had a mini panic attack and was stressed for rest of the day the yesterday afternoon i was told to clean the living room and i went upstairs to bathroom with my phone and i guess i took too long and dad knocked and asked where my phone is i panicked and said downstairs but when i came out the found out i was lying and they said i lose my phone for 3 days.i was tired achey and still little stressed over the day before not to mention i forgot to take my meds for adhd and depression that morning combined with my stupid stubborn teen self i refused to clean the living room anymore.mom said if it is not dont by 9 it would be extended to a week and every 30 min after would add an extra day.they just left me alone for a while and then mom told my to clean a pan for dinner and i was frustrated but went and started doing it when dad tried to be nice and said he would clean the pan if i started cleaning living room.i was going to accept when mom butt in and said no because she said i should do pan and i couldnt get out of it which got me frustrated and knowing i would just make a mess(which is the reason i tried explaining to them) i said i would not clean the pan which made mom mad and she said that every fricken min i take with pan will add a whole fricken extra day which of course stressed me out even more until mom told dad to go and make sure i do it again i tried to explain why i wouldnt do it but they didnt listen and started like shoving me towards the sink and telling me to clean the pan at this point i was starting to panic a little so i tried to sit down and calm down but they would not let me and grabbed my arm and moved it to the pan and basically forced me to start cleaning and i just broke down crying but they still kept trying to make me clean it and just kept making a mess and dad kept yelling at me to do it already and when he gave up i just sat on the floor and mom and dad started arguing over me and i couldnt breath bc of my runny nose and crying.mom stomped in and was obviously mad and forced me to stand and watch her clean the pan then yelled about how easy it would have been then they sent me to my room.needless to say i did not eat dinner(not that i could with how upset i was)and got very little sleep.im just so tired and frustrated.i hate my life.my stupid brain doesnt help making me blame everything on me....im just...so very tired of this

[Kelkel00]

I’m really sorry for your struggle. I am not sure if this will help or not, but as a parent of a teen myself, I struggle a lot on my end.

Both being a teen and a parent is really hard at times!

Hope it gets better from here!