Feel like dying

[Vannessasedillo]

Im really sad today I keep breaking down I wana leave the house but im weak I havint been eating because of my health problems I keep feel like throwing up but my throat swollen it hard to do anything I feel like a dead person n honestly I wana die why do i feel like that why do I want my life to end already im just so sad im alone 😞

[newmercies]

Please reach out for support. Here is the number for the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline: 800-273-8255

You are not alone❤️

[hypercat54]

Hi Vanessa. I have been looking at your previous posts and the following is what I have observed.

This issue has been going on for some months now and I wonder what steps you have taken to help yourself. I don't mean keep going back to the doctors to get another you are ok, but tackling the root cause of your health anxiety? Are you taking any meds? Are you doing any therapy? Have you googled (and looked at Youtube) to understand more about anxiety?

Also if you have done any looking round the site and reading other similar posts and replies which might help you? I notice you rarely comment on other peoples posts or replies on your own - not criticising you but these are the sorts of things you need to be doing to start getting a handle on your issues. If you don't deal with this it probably won't go away and your anxiety could well start manifesting in other ways too such as agoraphobia, and other health worries. Nothing will change unless you make it.

You say you are finding it difficult to eat? Ok I get this (my sister has similar issues) but you can get build up drinks to ensure you are as healthy as possible. My sister does and it works.

You can recover from this but it will take time and patience.

[Nothing_but_books in reply to hypercat54]

Hi hypercat,

I read you talked about "build up drinks". Do you mean Ensure (yuck!!! can't get it down), or do you know of something more natural, preferably more palatable?

Thanks.

[hypercat54 in reply to Nothing_but_books]

Yes ones like that. There are many different types so you should find one to suit you.

[Vannessasedillo in reply to hypercat54]

That's all I've been doing is trying to eat healthy I try to do stuff but it's always hard for me I don't have enough money for therapy and or physical therapy or I barely have enough money to do my procedure for my stomach because I haven't been eating it's hard always dealing with something and it always gets harder and when I try to figure out what's going on and try to find ways to help me nothing really works I have so many health issues it's not even funny it's a lot especially when it's hard to breathe every day and do stuff I'm trying but I get so worned out I get weak

[Agora1]

Vannessa dear, are you still with your guy? Emotions can choke us up. It can make us

not want to eat, trouble swallowing all this but not for a medical reason. As Hypercat stated, unless you go forward (even a baby step) in getting the help you need, you will keep feeling worse.

Sometimes we are our own worst enemy, we have the choice to continue suffering or to

leave things behind and go forward. You are a beautiful young woman who deserves more than all this pain. Talk to us more on this site. We have so many new people who can give

you some fresh new advice. As for myself, it will always be about protecting you and keeping you safe. Life is not about giving up but looking forward to a new Chapter. xx

[Vannessasedillo in reply to Agora1]

Thank you am I keep trying it's just gets harder and harder everyday and yes I'm still with this guy but I've been giving him space

[ZoeyMom]

Reach out. PLease don't hurt yourself. I'm struggling, too, just to get through my day. I'm lonely even though I have friends and family. But I come home to an empty house. I feel your pain. You're not alone. Call the suicide hotline if you need to. They help a lot.

[Vannessasedillo in reply to ZoeyMom]

Thank you and I won't hurt myself I'm just suffering

[Gentlespirit]

Life is a struggle its exhausting and its harder when we feel alone or are lonely. Add to that mental health and or medical issues and it can be overwhelming. Not feeling well exacerbate s everything cuz our mind body emotions are all connected. Are you catching a cold or something? Please consider calling your doctor to take care of yourself. I'm concerned and care. If you like cats picture the poster of the kitten hanging on and the meme hold on. There is good support on this site. .

[Vannessasedillo in reply to Gentlespirit]

I went to the doctor yesterday well in the hospital because I couldn't breathe and I wasn't eating I felt weak and I feel dizzy and I didn't have nobody to drive me to the hospital so I drove myself yesterday and they didn't think I have the code or anyting but I told them my throat is tight I can't breathe I can't breathe my throat hurts and they just gave me some Motrin

[Espejo1024]

You are not ever alone! God is right there with you, reach out to him for help, he's just a prayer away and He knows you and your situation better than any of us here! I'm going to give you a number to find a good counselor in your area. They can connect you and get you real support and help. 855-382-5433

Anxiety is over the top now with this Covid isolation so I found a great link to read more and get other ideas to help you. Especially when you don't feel well. I'm praying for you now. Virtual hugs.

bit.ly/3sgI3zw

❤️❤️

[Vannessasedillo in reply to Espejo1024]

Thank you😔

[Gentlespirit]

I'm glad you went just to be sure. Your health matters and is important . So are you.😊🐱Take care

[SuZQ154]

So sorry you are going through all of this! You are reaching out to us and to the doctors, which is the first step to getting better! That is wonderful!! Please keep doing that!

Since you are unable to go to counseling, would you consider reading books which might help? You might want to check out "Anxious for Nothing" bit.ly/3naJIUI. It has helped me through situations in the past!! Hope it will help you, dear one!

[Vannessasedillo in reply to SuZQ154]

Il try I use to read the bible alil thank you❤😔

[SuZQ154 in reply to Vannessasedillo]

I would encouarge you to keep reading How are you feeling today?

[Operalady]

What do you enjoy more than anything else? That is a key to finding your joy! Do you pray? The Bible says incessant prayer powerful pray! I understand how you feel! I also wanted to die! Yesterday in fact I was so distraught! My brother is very mentally ill ! The last 3 months have been horrible and I am so afraid for him that he will get killed! My soul is in agony but going to church today helped and watching this show on Utube called The Chosen has helped. I do not know what’s in store but for now I put myself and brother in Gods hands. Hope this helps!

[teen_anxiety]

I know that right now life just hurts but I can say that death is not the option that won't make the pain go away you are still gonna have to do your part to heal. That being said that does not mean you have to do this on your own I am here if you need to talk and whether you believe in him or not there is a God that wants to help you so bad that he even sent his son to earth to suffer the sins of the world so he can know how you feel in order to best be of help to you. (I hope that is not offensive to you if so let me know and I can remove it I just felt that was something you needed to hear). Another I want you to know is that it is worth it to put in the effort to get better I know that sometimes it can feel like it's not but it is. With the right effort, this does get better. I see that I am late in responding but I want to share this anyway because I just saw it in my feed and felt the urge to respond.

[Lowlow64]

It can be hard but you WILL get through this!!! No doubt. Try some grounding techniques like deep breathing and 5 senses. Look them over. You deserve to be happy and joyful and you will! Hang in there!! God bless you.