I’m so sad this morning

[Spooky99]

I woke up and realized my mom will be 89 soon. It is crazy to me!! She looks and acts 70. I haven’t seen her since Covid. She’s paranoid. I understand. I’m just so afraid of losing her. I can’t stop thinking of the future without her. She’s my best friend! I know I could go before her. It is just awful how fast life is going by. I also was thinking about when I was newly married and we got a dog. My husband and I didn’t train it. We had to little kids. It was wrecking my house. I admit it was our fault. One day my husband took him to the spca , I was sure he would get adopted. I called and he was put down. I blocked that out of my mind for 30 years. It makes me completely sick to my stomach lately. I have dogs now that I treat like babies. How could I have done that? I know I’m ranting about 2 different things. I just feel horrible. Thanks for listening 😞

[MomBoss]

We all have done things in life we r not proud of, don’t beat yourself up over it. It sounds like you’ve learned from it, so forgive yourself and husband

[Spooky99 in reply to MomBoss]

Thank you so much. I’m trying

[goldieoldie]

Hi Spooky,I understand how you feel ,when you feel that you could lose your mom and you are overly worried in the sense that you did not deal with the loss of your little dog all these years ago........Im over 70 and if you want you can message me and we can chat more,theres nothing worse than impending doom and its hanging over you until you grasp the meaning or try and understand your fears,hope you can relate to what Im saying ,my anxiety/depression has been a part of me for as long as I can remember!