Trust and anxiety.

[SiaDesai]

I have eventually realized that I have issues in trusting anyone but myself. This makes me behave in a very different manner with everyone and I find myself always alert and may be cynical when someone is being nice to me. This has made me anxious somehow and I get extremely conscious when I am talking with someone that I end up behaving the way they would expect me to do so.

I feel like I am losing myself in this cover up which I have maybe made to protect myself. This whole thing makes me restless.

I am longing for that sigh of relief.

[Hidden]

I have become very wary of people to some extent myself. I have been taken advantage of. It can be difficult sometimes wondering if someone is genuine or if someone is just being super nice because they want something from me. There are manipulative people out there. I really have some issues with men that way. It's okay to protect yourself. I understand that you don't want to come off as being cold or rude sometimes but if your gut feeling is that someone is getting you to feel uneasy and nervous, it makes sense to step away from them. I think trust is something that is slowly earned. There is the saying you can not have love without trust.

[Crich1982]

I have a really hard time trusting, too. My boyfriend and I have been together for 8 years and it’s the best relationship I’ve ever had. Are there issues, yes, but every relationship has those. With him, all the amazing things with us outweigh the bad. But still I find myself feeling like I have to protect myself and my feelings and my daughter. I have the same relationships with my family members. I know we talk about each other to each other but we’re never honest with the person we’re discussing. I have a few friends who I keep in touch with occasionally, like maybe once/twice a year, but I worry so much about how they see me, it’s easier for me to not interact with them at all. Like us all, I’m so emotionally and mentally exhausted. I’ve always feared someone using my words or behavior against me or to hurt me, so it’s easier to only open up to a select few and what I share with 1 I may not share with others.