I feel like I’m going to die this week ...

[bunnyar]

I’ve never reached out for support like this, but I’m so desperate for atleast someone who understands and some reassurance that it is just anxiety. I went to the lake on Labor Day, which was 7days ago now, while being there a girl drowned and I witnessed it. A group of people included myself jumped in the water to try and save her. But I later found out she didn’t make it.

Since then I had fears of possible COVID. But now I’m afraid that I could have a brain eating amoeba and I’m dying. I’m so afraid to die!!! I went to the ER last night and they did a neurological exam and blood work and it all came back normal. But I feel like they missed something ...

[Hidden]

I have this feeling too sometimes but in life we’re all going to die someday. What about dying scares you though? I mean to be fair it does scare me a lot and i’ve always had a big fear about it but I try not to let it bother me so much. I’m sure you are young and healthy anyways so please try not to worry about your health all that much. It helps having faith in God and that’s what makes me not fear death because I know i’m going to heaven.

[Ladybug9]

I can almost promise you nothing is wrong with you health wise trying to save that woman. what I do feel is that you are feeling remorse for not being able to save her. Survivor guilt is extremely painful and can cause a lot of emotional damage. You did what you had to. Damn it, give yourself some slack and be proud that you didn't just stand by and watch like so many people do. I'm really proud of you!!

[Hidden]

Ok, firstly you witnessed a traumatic event, it must of been just awful jumping in that lake to try and save someone, this has no doubt triggered your anxiety, as a result of this you now have the million and one worries and fears that anxiety commonly pushes into our heads, these are just anxieties "what if" scenarios, "what if I have this or that"

"what if I die"

"what if the tests missed something"

Your test results were good "fact"

You had the tests done by hospital professional staff "fact"

blood testing can uncover many issues, but yours didn't "fact"

What you did by jumping into that lake was heroic, you should be extremely proud of yourself for such a selfless act in trying to save a complete stranger, stand proud and tall, don't listen to anxieties irrational and cruel messages, you are ok.

You know deep down that these frightening thoughts will pass with time, you've experienced something shocking and by no means an everyday occurrence so ofcourse it's of no surprise that your anxieties are in full swing, just let it be there for now, these thoughts are frightening but they can't hurt you.

Give things time to settle in your mind, comfort yourself with a well deserved treat and above all, be patient and let time pass, your ok, we're all here xxx

[Wish_to_heal]

First of all , really amazing of you to try and help some on in trouble!

Next up , I think you should relax and calm down since your blood reports turned out to be normal.

Stay safe