Mornings

[florapeace]

Morning are super hard... I just want to lay in bed for the rest of eternity. I could die today and be perfectly content. My anxiety is out if control and I feel like I don’t have a safe space. I can hardly leave my bedroom... not sure what to do but I’m feeling like this is not what life should be like

[Rosco49]

I can empathise with you, I've been similar , especially recently, for me probably combination of factors, including, some past hurts, being in early stages of medication and some external factors like the current Covid stuff. We may all experience this kinda feeling for different reasons, however we get there, it is not a nice place to be, so you certainly are not alone and it is not your fault. Just a moment in time that will pass, (I know it doesn't feel that way and I don't always beleive it when people say it to me, but it will). Prayer, meditation, talking with a trusted person or even Breathing Space, CALM or Samaritans can help as a listening ear. It may also be worth speaking to a health professional as medication can be part of what will get you back on your feet. I know it is hard when yoou can't see a way up, but there is for all of us, just about trying some things and finding what works for you. I'm in my bedroom just now as I had a bad morning with anxiety, tried to go to shops, but felt panicky and left as it was too busy, so I know how it feels not to feel safe. Perhaps try walking for maybe 5 mins then gradually biuld it up and don't be to hard on yourself. You can and will get better, but try some things to help facilitate that, love and best wishes.

[florapeace]

I have been on medication for 2 years, I meditate 30 mins daily, and I see a therapist every 2 weeks. I’m really trying but it Feels pointless