Im doing ok, hanging in there, My sleep is a bit of a problem nowadays , either i cant sleep, or i overthink alot when my head is on the pillow i just dont want to go to bed , the tiredness and derealization makes me feel like a ghost or a robot, like everything is a haze, i just want this week to go well then i can work through everything
I worked through about half the things i got on my plate, the job interview, a couple events i had
But i have my driving test in a few days , im surprisengly not panicking so far, been praying alot, finding ways to cope , no one in my family really gets anything i go through, so i dont really say anything
The area im in is imposing a full lockdown tomorrow, again im feeling trapped and the anxiety is worsening , i try to stay optimistic but i dont recognize myself anymore , i cant wait to socialize again, go out soon, because this isolation, the excessive overthinking is really affecting me , i cant focus , even talking is hard , i have these obsessive thoughts that im fighting eventhough they just consist of irrational thoughts