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I ain't afraid of suicideeeee

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Funny! I say that cause a couple hours ago I had a breakdown and called Suicide Prevention. BIG mistake. SOB traced my number and called the cops. I denied it all and they left. Whoops. They could have Baker Act my ass to the mental ward for involuntary week long retreat. But yeah, I tried suicide many years ago. Learned that the human body is a pretty durable piece of machinery. Not so easy to stop it when you want it too. But my life has taken a downturn that I cannot get out of. Not afraid of suicide, just now I have a plan. I'll hang around for awhile but when it's time I'm outta here.

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I dont even remember writing this...I'm not suicidal right now. Still struggling though. I am afraid of suicide. Sorry rondo you are going through this. I know it doesnt help much by saying that. Good to meet you too. It's just funny how I got more comfortable with the idea of suicide. I know it's a taboo to talk about it but I feel better talking about it then hiding it.