There’s a real lit up tip of a beautiful and astute person moving gracefully and perfectly and somehow they get outside from themselves from time to time...like what the fuck am I even doing...until theres that one time coming up, the one time when we really try to recall how many times we have wished for death, we wish this partly because we’ve lost something through it all, all the stomping thrashing growling scratching grappling spinning rolling and if it doesn’t get better soon we know we won’t continue to do this for a life. And then since we don’t have a choice , we get so angry, filled with strength that could be very dangerous along with the feel of hopelessness. We blame. We are guilty. We wait for signs from God who we don’t believe in anymore.
Pain is good but then there’s too muc... - Anxiety and Depre...
Pain is good but then there’s too much of it
I give up on him too ☹️Thanks for your honesty star I can relate to everything you say
It’s the most depressing thing not having a God. One time I asked for a sign because I was sooooo depressed was outside and said something like please give me the comfort of You being here for me and just then s shooting star can close closer looking like a sticker in the sky coming, getting larger, and straight into my heart. I felt relief. I feel like that was then and I need something now since I am different circumstances are different. I think it’s pretty screwed up of God to let us hanging waiting suffering ha but if there is no God then nothing to be upset about right? I am trying to stay away from people cause I’ve been so mean today so I will try to do no more harm. But it’s hard I feel I need support and don’t know what to do as I’m feeling suicidal. I can’t go anywhere right now. I have to be stronger here now. I keep having urges to hurt myself. Sorry I feel selfish I’m sorry you can relate. Maybe we’ll heal. I have this new thing I’m doing instead of up at 5:30 I wake at 10ish maybe there’s healing it that. What else can we do to heal?
Sorry that was maybe a bit much eh.
Oh no star I’m just slow getting back to you...I’m a believer in the power of the universe now not god as a religious viewpoint that causes too much trouble imo...hey get this I had someone give me some runner bean plants 9..I never grew anything b4 so now they are climbing right up the poles and full of red flowers so I was thinking mmmm no sign of beans maybe I did something wrong ...and 2 minutes later I turned over the television and it was a gardener talking about how his bean plants have red flowers on so beans are due soon 🙃like your shooting star thing 😉
Soooooo cooooool
Reminded me of you 🙃
Lmao that it reminded you of me... yeah you all better watch out for me!
It was the upside down thing haha
Oh haha 🙃
How old are you Starlight ?
What is causing pain, Mental Health Pain or physical Pain ? Pain comes from many problems especially if it is something to do with Relationships. That is why I ask why you feel the way you do in a direct fashion
BOB
Chemical imbalances probably and I hate who I’ve become like I’m just suffering so badly I snap at people and it doesn’t feel right it’s not me and im trying harder but shit I don’t know if I can keep going like this I feel so in edge like I’m going to have to stay away from people.
I am very much the same my preference is to be alone with my family, Wife and dog.
Sometimes we can get really hurt over the years. In my case family had and still has a lot to be blamed for. Some of us just prefer to move on.
In my case I made some life changing changes the problem is the rats go to great lengths to find us and that can and does unsettle the apple cart
Yes some mental health concerns are chemical although, some time it is all to do with living your life the way you wish for. And yes you will allow yourself to mix with others to move on
BOB
Yeah life is just so complicated or do we just go and try making it that way?
That is the feeling put into words. Thank you.
Trust me, God is still here. You see the sky, don't you? You see the sun and feel the wind blow, right? Perception is a big key here, S. When you stop seeing your life as a prison sentence and open your eyes to all the blessings around you, then you'll truly begin to see. Could you have those beautiful kids of yours without God? Would you even be here at all if there was no God? Since there is a God and there is a you and there are your beautiful kids, a sky, a sun, wind, rainbows and all the treasures in life you can imagine, wake up and look around. Okay? Beauty is everywhere. Your avatar's namesake included....Light up the world with love, don't drown it with sorrow....Keep walking forward, towards a better tomorrow! Please?
❤
I’m living. I’m going on.
Hi Star. I hope someday you will have faith and hope that there is a God. He is waiting for you to have a place in your heart for Him. He is waiting for you to give him access. You just have to believe and then your spiritual journey will begin.
I understand what ypu are going through. We all have suffered. No one escapes the heartache and the suffering from life. No one! At the same time life is beautiful and although there are ups and downs there are great times too (and I know u know this)
Ive missed you❤❤ You are a great person. And we all love u here!
XxSunni
I’ve always believed in God but I do have my doubts these days.
I miss you, awesome friend of mine!
Miss u too John!
I saw a single set of footsteps in the sand. It was during times of my life that I struggled. I asked Jesus why he left me in those times of sorrow. Jesus said for those were the times that I carried you.
Jesus is and will always be there. Don't lose faith. Love and blessings for you!!
I think you and I agree. That last statement, I identify with. So that makes me an agnostic, a heathen. Sure, fine, whatever fits. In other words I do not believe in supernatural beings. As for pain I do agree with you to some extent. Needless to say most people do not like pain and try to avoid it. It is good in that a painful sensation will alert the body to an injury. But a pain in the mind - again a sign of a injury - cannot easily be assessed, much less adequately treated. May you have no pain in either body or mind. Let's see if my thoughts and best wishes are as good as a prayer. Oh and I am a live person, another human being on the planet Earth.
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