So me and my wife got into a huge fight. I'm depressed have been for years and she has had enough of me.
I can't control myself I'm angry all the time. I hate myself, I have been thinking about suicide for over two weeks. My family doesn't talk to me other than my mother. My wife says I don't try. I have been depressed for years. I'm on medication that doesn't work, spent thousands seeing doctors and medication. I am in chronic pain from nerve damage. I just want it all to end.
My husband was very much like that for years too. He was angry all the time and complaining about everything. He finally revealed to me that he had resentment toward me from years earlier he had been holding inside. We talked it over during therapy. He has changed so much since that talk. So with that said, do you harbor resentment toward your wife or your mom or dad?
Someone even since you were a child?
I really think that "lynnalice" has the best advice anyone could give you. Maybe you could begin by talking to your regular doctor and ask his direction/advice about speaking with a therapist...either alone or with your wife... Thing is: I KNOW that this might not sound appealing to you at all...its HARD, when you have depression, not to find fault with ANY possibility that might actually help you... but you have somehow GOT to push through that. I know you can!! After all, you wrote here...and that in itself took effort and I'm proud of you for that!! 
Many times we are afraid to speak the REAL TRUTH about how we feel for fear that we will lose somebody...but one HAS TO take that chance. Best of wishes to you Mr. Beerglass! I got really tickled at your name here! I hope you are having some happy spots in this weekend!! Take care!
I have never been married, really haven’t ever loved, but I do know what it’s like to be in chronic pain both physically and mentally. If you really love this woman then I think it’s worth working out, but no matter what happens between you two I want you to know this; You’re life is worth it. You are worth the pain of getting better. You are worth people who support that process. I’m thinking of you
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