Been a while.

[lbp_419]

It’s Sunday night. I’ve thought a lot about these past few weekend and boy they’ve been hard. My boyfriend and I have been fighting. This guy and I have been falling for each other and no one knows about it because if anyone knew there would be too much stress. I keep wanting to break my addiction and drink but my gut keeps stopping me. My boyfriend missed homecoming and it was my last homecoming. He didn’t even get me anything special or at all for our 1 year anniversary on Thursday. And school has been drowning me in work. I got a job but then I lost it because my mom safe me quit because they were under paying me and I feel like I’m so unbelievably unhappy here. I wanna go somewhere and travel and meet new people from different cultures. I’ve talked to my boyfriend about it and hoping that he’ll change his mind about moving in together or leaving this town but he doesn’t want any of that. Ugh. I feel so helpless.

[higherpurpose]

I'm glad that you are continuing to not drink. Drinking may sound like a good idea but the guilt that comes after and other things that may come up is not worth it. I commend you for staying sober. People aren't always going to act and agree with the things we want to do in life. We must keep in mind that it is our own life and only we can decide what we want to do with it. Do what you feel is right for you and what will make you happy instead of doing what you think others want you to do. I am praying for you.

[lbp_419 in reply to higherpurpose]

I’m glad someone responded, I was beginning to feel there was no help out here