It’s Been 1 Year

[Tkay93]

Back in October of 2017 I admitted myself into a metal hospital. I’ve been doing amazingly well since then, I’ve had my ups and downs but those thoughts haven’t been around. Until the other day. I had told myself that I would never let myself get to that point again. That I want to be able to be happy and stay that way. But the thoughts came back and I feel like I’ve failed myself some how. I’ve put in all the work doing things that I know should keep my sprites high, but it seems to never be enough. I feel like there’s never going to be a time when I don’t feel shame.

[dee_bells]

You haven’t failed. You’ve been successful for almost a year. I’m proud of you! That’s amazing.

I wish for happiness but I’m realistic after a zillion years I’ll have good and bad days. I just need to work through the bad times and you can too. So never give up! You’ve got this!

Be honest with yourself and don’t beat yourself over it. I’m wishing you all the best. Stay positive!

🌸🌸🌸🌸Dee

[Hidden]

Hello Tkay93!

If you’re feeling shame, you must somehow be thinking or dwelling on the past. Let go of that mess! If the shame was present before today, you’re thinking too much on the past. What do you think?

[Tkay93 in reply to Hidden]

Yeah I’d have to agree with you on that. I’ve been doing a lot of reading and am slowly starting to realize what really causes me to feel low like I do sometimes (my triggers) the more I mess up or fail, it makes me feel like I’m not good enough, that no matter how much I try, I’ll never me enough. And when that first thought hits me my mind just goes to all the times in that past that I’ve ever felt that way, all the times were I’ve messed up, failed, let someone down. It’s a Cycle that I don’t know how to break.

[Hidden in reply to Tkay93]

But you are plenty good enough! Believe it!!

[Ann10]

Concentrate on the tools that help you cope. Keep practicing those skills day after day to make those thoughts go away.