New day, New possibilities UPDATE

[Hope4me2018]

OK, today was an EXTREME CHALLENGE!!! I had everything you can think off to make me eat my own words. I felt as if I was being watched all day as it is my payday and I’m trying to pay some bills here and there between working, never a great idea for me to try to work and incorporate personal business as this is one of my triggers. Lesson learned. I won’t get into details because of the length but by 4:30 I literally thought I was going to lose it. All day I’m telling myself it’s not as bad as you think and my mind keeps replaying “THIS IS BAD!” Over and over. I finally stopped went into the bathroom let out a silent cry and made myself smile. I told myself I will not be unhappy and worry over things I have no control over, it is not that bad, I will be ok, and I will not do any more pity parties. This is it! What I’m trying to say is it’s me and my mind against this thing. And I’m determined to win. Well, I wiped my tears, took a deep breath and went back to work. I normally would have had to leave or been down in the dumps. Don’t get me wrong I still tested up as I am writing this post. But, I’m tearing I cause I can’t take it anymore. I’m tearing up because I know I’m getting to a better place. Your posts have helped me and I thank all of you for help and ask they you continue to post on here and DON’T EVER GIVE UP FIGHT!!!

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Good for you!!! You never win when you quit!!! Keep up the good fight! Love & Hugs!!! XXX