Self love?

[blue1764]

I am a teen and I am very critical of myself. I always call myself fat or ugly when I am neither. Don’t mean that in a cocky way. I’ve always hated my body so I started to work out about 4 months ago. I used to be 130 and am now 110. I have slimmed down a lot but it’s like it’s not enough. Then I started to struggle with anorexia and bulimia. I started to lose more weight and it was still not enough. I compare myself to so many other people wishing I was them. I think I am very ugly and not worth love or attention. I have a hard time going out and doing social things with people my age because I have a fear or getting judged for how “ugly” I am. I severely hate myself and how I look. I don’t talk about it much but I feel very comfortable on health unlocked. I don’t know what to do. I’m scared I’ll never be satisfied with myself. How do I love myself ?

[fauxartist]

I'm sorry your struggling with this blue....and it's a very serious issue....may I ask if you have gotten any professional help with understanding this...why your so hard on yourself and what is going on in your life that makes you feel this way....from what I understand it has a lot to do with not feeling like you have any control over your life, and your only control is over what you do with your body. I would definitely see a therapist...this can be life threatening.....take care of you....you are not ugly, you are perfect the way you are...and you will learn to believe that....but getting help now is very important...take care.

[blue1764 in reply to fauxartist]

Thank you 💞