Struggling from anxiety and depression

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Good day everyone. I am a mother of 2 and I would like advice as to handle my anxiety and depression. I've felt alone ,not good enough and alone for many years. And with all these issues my anger and insecurities have reached levels I don't know how to handle anymore. I am always alone with my kids and have no one to talk to. This not only affects my me physically but also affects the manner in which I treat my kids . I don't know what to do anymore. Right now I feel like running away or dying would make more sense. Please please someone out there help me .I can't handle it anymore

[Hippos2001]

I’m sorry you are going through this. You are not alone- your post resonates with me. I have kids and my spouse is always gone for work. I continually listen to positive parenting programming because I’m terrified that I will project my inner loneliness, anxiety and resentment onto my kids. I wish I could adopt their care-free and accepting attitudes and often think I’m extinguishing their fire within. For me, I believe this is brain based/chemical problem. I didn’t experience a traumatic childhood and have no major hardships in my life- except this. I have a loving husband, healthy bright loving children and all the while I have seemingly ‘everything to live for’ most days I don’t want to. My doc and I are currently searching for a medication that will help as the one I’ve been taking for 10 years is no longer effective