Another night of insomnia, sigh

[Mguss]

It seems it's another night of insomnia. The good news: No dreadful racing thoughts, OCD, or paranoia. Tonight, it's kinda apathy, like "great this again"--and on a work night, because, of course. I just don't feel tired, which is probably better than crippling anxiety?

So, progress? *shrugs*

Context: I've decided to stop taking a relatively small dose of St. John's Wort (300mg/day), which I now think may have been making me manic. I kinda rather not be manic.

But I'm guessing since tonight's insomnia is not as uncomfortable as the one prior, I may be making progress. So, I suppose, cheers to that.

But still, if any of y'all have insomnia/withdrawal tips, send them my way!

[Scott1951]

Insomnia is horrible. But at least you weren't lying there wide awake experiencing racing thoughts and paranoia. When I can't sleep I at least try to "rest" and that is a lot easier when your thoughts aren't tormenting you. Hope you have the energy you need for your day. How's the mindfulness training working out? Best of luck!

[Mguss in reply to Scott1951]

Yeah, it just kinda feel like a zombie. And I can tell my anxiety is bad in the mornings because I gag often (which I just like when I first got diagnosed with a panic disorder). But then I kinda focus, and then I manage to be semi-functional to drive myself to work (I'm at work now).

I had an emergency session with my therapist, and she said that it is most probably anxiety related to a new (temp) job I have, which I initially I had huge misgivings about consciously; now, it appears my subconscious is actually rebelling(?). Insomnia tends to stem from anxiety--am I actually not conscious as to how much anxiety this job is doing?

I also can't Chuck this up solely to existential anxiety--I did stop taking my low-dosage of St. John's Wort. But I've never had withdrawal symptoms that included insomnia (from anything) before.

I'm again seeing my therapist today.