Hello lovely members of this community. I'm grateful to have found you.
I have been having a rough week or so and would appreciate very much any support and inspiration you might care to share with me.
After a summer of a lighter and manageable teaching load, I started back a week ago with 2 college courses and it seems that while it is a lovely place and I enjoy it very much, it's too much for me physically right now. It's taken me by surprise.
I have asked to speak to my EP to follow up on going off of Toprol, which he is fine with.
It's confounding; I have felt both clearer mentally and with more energy overall since going off Toprol (around 2 weeks ago), but my heart feels more jittery and weaker. Towards the end of my class yesterday and then all evening, I shifted in and out of AF. They are definitely not as strong as episodes in the past and maybe aren't even AF; Kardia sometimes flags activity as Possible AF that isn't. But I haven't had these particular kinds of symptoms before. I'd generally feel good all day, then go to bed and have an episode around once per week. This is quite different.
I seem to have hit a wall in the mental game of AF, too. After finding this wonderful community and Dr. Gupta, thinking now *that's* how a doctor ought to be (!), I've felt emotions that I must've sat on while soldiering on with the Western doc style who is rather detached.
I am so tired of it all. The ambiguity, the things that don't work, doctors who disagree about approach, the physical impact, and lately anxiety. I've actually become fairly skilled at dealing with it all, but lately....it starts to feel like it's all I do and I'm just fed up. Somehow need to get past it.
I'm hoping my acupuncturist might squeeze me in.
I did take my 100 mg Flecainide PIP last night, with 6.25 mg Toprol (half of my previous dose; though small, seems to have helped). It did eventually calm things down and today I feel the fatigue and drugged aftereffects of last night.
I'm wondering if others who have vagally mediated AF and who have gone off Toprol have had these kinds of symptoms as well.
I'm wondering what other non-beta blocker rate control medications others have had success with.
Mainly kindness and encouragement would help a lot at this point. It might help me get my feet back under me again.
Thank you very much.