Lost Myself Today

[Cooolone]

I lost myself today...

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Was looking in the mirror,

And I wondered who was looking at me

Strange, I didn't recognize the person there,

I was wondering what that person could see

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Who was this, and how did I get here?

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Was thinking about the future

And the past got in the way

Had a bunch of flashbacks, memories

But mostly, nowhere I'd like to stay

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So, I got back to the mirror

And wondered what had happened

What was it, that I was supposed to do

And if I was here, where was you

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Who's going with me, who'd be there in the end...

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I wandered through the fields in my mind

Funny those places, we've forgotten long ago

Searching for somewhere to spend some time

Appears again and again, are we to go?

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Is funny looking at myself, in that mirror_

There's things I think I've never seen before

Lines on my face, telling tales, and more

A journey's bookmarks, markers & memories

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I lost myself today...

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The eyes, seem more distant than I remember

Lost to somewhere unseen, a destination_

Maybe somewhere I want, but never been

Is it a trip to plan, who's going, who isn't

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Was looking in the mirror,

And I wondered, who was looking back at me

I didn't recognize the person there

So unfamiliar, where is this taking me_

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I see the person looking back at me

I hope we travel together, don't lose touch

There's so much more left to go

Keep it all together, isn't really so much

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Who is there, why is it me?

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I got back to the mirror,

And wondered what might have happened

What was it, that I was supposed to do

Who was with me, who'd be there in the end

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I'm alone, with myself and my thoughts_

Realize how it's always been this way

Who is this person, staring back at me

Someone who's been there, every day...

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I found myself this day...

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[Kaliber]

Nice poem , very introspective … thanks for posting …

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[MateoBeach]

Yes. You found yourself this day. Be at peace with that one, as ever in the mirror. More true and steady than any changing image. Laugh at that one and turn back to yourself. Just as you have ever been.

[Hidden]

Beautifully written, friend. Some time I'd like to sit and have one of those ichi-go ichi-e conversations with you.

[SoonerMark]

Very nice, made me reflect too

[Bodysculpture]

Beautiful

[Pheart2]

Bravo!

[Jackpine]

Thank you for posting very self reflective.

[Boywonder56]

Good job....

[dadzone43]

You walk with a good companion.

[podsart]

Wonderfully written, very insightful

[greatjohn]

Looking inward…seeing now. Great insight and beautiful use of words. I love words 🥰

[addicted2cycling]

Interesting reflection perspective.

My "LOOK into THE MIRROR" was 21 years ago on my 50th birthday and FAR LESS IMPRESSIVE.

Woke up, went into the bathroom, looked into the mirror and said to the image looking back >>>

You are now 50

You have most likely lived longer than you have left to live

Before you die you will likely be told YOU HAVE CANCER

SO BUCK UP, go pee, poop, brush your teeth and GET ON WITH YOUR LIFE

[CSHobie]

Very well done, thanks for sharing

[Islandboy2021]

I enjoyed reading your poem. It brings to question, do we prematurely age with this disease and medications we take. Or is it just old age creeping up on us. I too barely recognize the man in the mirror.

[Hidden in reply to Islandboy2021]

I feel that I’ve aged in dog years since dx. If you had anything in your heredity bad health wise it’ll come out now. IMO My mo says that no t doesn’t shorten a lifespan . Bs

[Hidden]

Pretty intense. My guy in the mirror looking back at me has gained 40lbs, two extra chins, and bruises on his arms that look as though he wrestles Bears in his spare time. Nice job though👍

[Hidden in reply to Hidden]

More chins than a Chinese phone book huh? I’m the opposite the “ thin man now”! 🧐

[Hidden]

“ Misty water colored memories , of the way we were”.. shattered pictures” Rule number #1. Don’t look in to mirrors, # 2 keep bathroom lights on dim. When I catch an unwanted glimpse of self …I think, “ I’m half the man I used to be”.. “ I’m a loser baby , so why don’t you kill me”? A line from Becks song “loser” The first few years with no t were the worst for me. With Painful Sarcopenia I watched all muscle leave my body . Then my teeth started failing then osteopenia ,djd and neuropathy throughout my body . The true man is not the physical image we once were. It the kindhearted loving spirit inside that can’t be squashed by cancer or the devils hands. Love those around you . Love yourself , no matter how we look or feel . This is a true test of self . The flesh is weak. We all know this by now. Strengthen your spirit and love what you love . Stay strong …not one of us that’s been stripped down hasn’t thought “ who am I, how the fuck did I get here , to this point”? We all find ourself on this voyage . I believe in you . After all ,you are the Cooolone amigo!

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[Hidden]

Now you’re found!👏🏼👏🏼👏🏼👏🏼😎🙏

[j-o-h-n]

Mirror Mirror on the wall, I am an old man after all............

Good Luck, Good Health and Good Humor.

j-o-h-n Saturday 09/18/2021 10:42 PM DST

[Rondief]

All I can say is WOW.

[Channelhomec]

Hits home so true thanks for posting