Goodbye but never forgotten

[betterlivingbeing]

7/15/19 Post? Funeral Pre-Goodbye

I didn’t know it would hurt this much

I thought through previous pain in my heart I would be out of touch

What will ever heal the heart, fill the empty space?

Or even replace your warm embrace?

To whom do I turn when my whole world turns upside down?

I will miss your listening ears when my mind is racing to get out of town

How can I ever forget your last words to me

As you placed those skinny arms around me, “I miss you P”

I am so glad we had time to make things right

To put away bitter memories of a petty fight

Remembering how that Friday I rushed home to you with delight

Not knowing what would soon become my plight

While planning your celebration of life

I felt my own was being carved out by a butcher’s knife

41 years has not always been a paradise

But oh how I would give back to you only words that were nice

How am I going to make it without you?

What am I going to do?

I feel so lost and thought I would be strong

But Oh God I have been so wrong

I wish I could go back in time

And fill your last moments with actions sublime

You’re in my thoughts, I feel your presence

But like a dream I awake and your life is gone like the odor of essence

Today seals another experience as I say goodbye

Never again to feel even those cold hands as in your casket you lie

Will remain true and fight to live life as I know you would want me to do

And cherish precious moments and like you, walk on the grass without my shoe

From Esmeralda to Ras KingP.

[Mauvemood]

Wow! It is as though I am reading my own words! My husband passed away on 12/3/2019. Sending hugs and crying with you!

[betterlivingbeing in reply to Mauvemood]

Warm hugs my dear (((💚🙏🏽💚)))

[Schwah]

I’ve read hundreds of posts here over the last 3 or 4 years but nothing like that. So moving, so real, so touching and so heartfelt. You did good Esmeralda. Really good. So sorry for your loss. But so happy for your life together...

Schwah

[betterlivingbeing in reply to Schwah]

Thank you for kind words

[Cisco99]

"Walk on the grass without my shoe..." Lovely

[betterlivingbeing in reply to Cisco99]

He always walked on the grass without his shoes. He would tease me and say,;”lighten up, get your feet dirty.”

[Cisco99 in reply to betterlivingbeing]

"And that's how I got the ringworm." 😫

[Hidden]

Heart wrenching and wonderful .. Thank you ! Much love 😫

[betterlivingbeing in reply to Hidden]

💚🙏🏽💚

[curious-mind1]

Very sorry for your loss, such incredible words of love you have written! Sorry for your loss.

Art

[immunity1]

Beautiful, heart felt..

[Vitaminlover]

I am just blown away by this post. You put into words what we are feeling and thinking but could not express.

[siouxbee19]

So heart wrenching yet beautiful...my condolences for your loss...prayers and thoughts for peace and comfort. 🙏♥️

[Dachshundlove]

Keep writing. In sharing with us your movement through this grief you are allowing us to walk along side you. It’s an honor and I thank you.

Life destroys us. That is what it does. And Our spirits rise from the ashes. Both are true.

[Jeffrey856]

Beautiful

[joekaty]

Beautifully expressed and hit home for me and I see many others. Do keep writing. Crying here for you and for me. So sorry for your loss...feeling your pain.

[monte1111]

Such a beautiful expression of love. I still remember, and always will remember the great pictures. I have thought many times about how great it would be to have a photo gallery on this site. I am wishing you all the best. Monte