Chemo5: cough not subsided ,CT neg. In lungs, previous node, weak. Exhausted . He is losing his ever present smile. I'm scared.

[Daddyishealing]

My dad has smiled literally through fires, floods, roofs collapsing. He can always see the brighter side and in great sadness,,always finds a way to laugh or smile. I ve seen his smile so much less. I know weakness and exhsustion. I know what it feels like to be in too much pain to laugh or too weak to dress myself, or to tired to react well to the world around me. But I've never missed his smile so much. after the 3rd chemo, he got a cold a severe cough, which a cough, BTW was his fort indication of cancer a year and a half prior to diagnosis. The cough won't let up. And he's just so weak. In 2 weeks chemo 6. Exgeva will be moved up to every 4 weeks instead of 6. Has anyone experienced anything similar. ..please give me hope his smile will come back and cough go away. Psa good news. Started at 75, now 4.6 still on a very slow climb down. Lupron started in august and continues. Does this slow drop indicate anything because it seems most dropped so much faster. Last scan showed nearly no changes in Mets, only very slight. Please advise me, reassure me, tell me your tales. I treasure your brave and oh so serious and yet humorous hearts. I truly do. Happy healing my friends.

[Daddyishealing]

He is also now anemic and taking iron, and mg. Because mg was low, but he's not miserable mentally, just not able to express anyhow in his heart. I've always made him smile, and he's just too weak right now. Advice advice please?

[Hidden in reply to Daddyishealing]

IV Iron. Is he in the hospital yet? If not GET HIM THERE. I know what it's like, I thought I was on my death bed. This is nothing to fool around with. My Hgb was at 7, and there is no strength at all at those levels. Nasty stuff. Hope all goes well.

[Daddyishealing in reply to Hidden]

Really, no, he's trying to get by. They told him it's just a side effect that he can take iron, but I have to make sure he is. No inuranve wouldn't want to do iv. More money . He has tendency towards anemia,anemic as a kid as well, but never since. Thanks joe, so glad you got the care you needed and always know you'll never lose your sense of humor. You're awesome. Thanks

[Jvaughan0]

You are still seeing his smile. It is a part of who he is and who you have become. It is his legacy to you. Cherish it in your heart and thoughts even when you don't see it on his face. Some moments in time represent an eternal guiding light.

[Daddyishealing in reply to Jvaughan0]

I needed to hear those words so much right now. Thank you for the calm that brought to me.I'm just wondering if this general exhaustion lasts beyond chemo. ? Ty so much

[Hidden]

Dear Daddyishealing,

I've been following your posts, and I find them heartbreaking. I have no advice, and I have no words of comfort to offer. Your Dads Pca is further along than my own, but we all will be at this juncture at some point. Provided we don't do the bus thing. Your posts, as has many others, provide the rest of us the insight of what we will be going through as we progress along. Your really a hero to many of us.

I got this thing seven years ago at 50, so I'm one of the relatively young guys to get it. And, I would like to live a long time too. But, I know that's not going to happen. I've come to terms with my own mortality, but not the suffering I may have to deal with to get there.

Peace, Joe

[Daddyishealing in reply to Hidden]

Joe, your youth is to your advantage and because you are not as far along, I mean sure we're all going I die , but Joe. You are not going anywhere anytime soon. Medicine is progressing fast and they'll be more options when or if you get to my father's stage. So you truly have the possibility of living a full long life. So you keep believing, and laughing and I know I'll be talking to you when the next treatment comes to fruition just when you need it. I have a bad guy feeling about my dad I try to ignore because I can't tell if I'm feeding fear or a knowing. But my dad's onco. Told him he's more likely to die with prostate cancer than of it! I'LL BE SEEING YOU ON THIS SIDE FOR QUITE SOME TIME MR! this is what I sincerely believe.