Loneliness

[bluebrains]

Hey, I have bin diagnosed a long time ago and I don't even remember a time before. Anyway, last year I started studying and even though I'm pretty ambitious and successful every little thing seems to overwhelm me. Even though I know, there are amazing people in my life it feels like I'm somehow loosing contact to the world. I think nobody that meets me really likes me. I feel like eventually my friends will find out, what a bad person I am (or at least how I see myself) and they will just turn away. I have really big problems, meeting new people and keeping up with friends and family. Does anyone else feel like this and had tips what to do about it or what helped you?

[FindingTheAnswers]

Hi. I understand and I have been there. It's just plain crappy, scary. Lonely, and feeling alone, even with others. Not sure where to turn to or who you can trust. Does anyone truly 'Get me' or understand me?

You didn't mention if you were seeing a therapist or MD. If not, 1 or both can help pull you out of the hole Depression has pulled you into (if possible try to see both). It can take a while to find a Therapist that's right for you-that you click with. Also finding the right Rx can be trial and error. And yes, this can make things even more overwhelming. Those 1st few steps feel impossible. Are there any phone centers that you can call and actually talk to someone?

Are you taking anything for your ADHD? Does it feel like it's doing anything for you?

The Holidays can make all of this even tougher for you.

When you say "it feels like I'm somehow loosing contact to the world. I think nobody that meets me really likes me. I feel like eventually my friends will find out, what a bad person I am (or at least how I see myself)..." That is the Depression talking. Wanting to drag you down even farther. A lot of people don't know how to relate to this or are afraid of it for various reasons.

You are not a bad person! Not at all.

Depression is like an endless repeating loop of a Bad Program that keeps going through your mind. It's difficult to make it stop. To shut it off. Also Depression can make it seem as if you're losing it or slipping farther away from reality. But you're still here with us.

It can be extremely difficult to find and connect with others that you're experiencing. But they are out there. And they've been there and/or are still in pain.

ADHD makes my Depression worse. (Or my Depression make my ADHD worse?)

Here are some American websites to check out. I'm sure there are is something similar where your at:

NAMI-nami.org/Home

Help Guide-helpguide.org/articles/depr...

American Psychiatric Association-psychiatry.org/patients-fam...

NIH-nimh.nih.gov/health/topics/...

Search for other websites that you connect with. YouTube videos on dealing with Depression?

The Holidays can make all of this even tougher for you. Not just what time of year it is, but a lot of places are working less hours around now. And then there's Covid...

*If you need to, go to the emergency room. That might sound scary or embarrassing, but the Dr's and Nurses have seen this many times (**Many Times**!). You probably won't be the only one there seeking help.

That 1st step can be the toughest.

Can you go for a walk and get outside for a while? Or some type of exercise.

Is there 1 person who truly 'Gets' you? Is there someone you could go spend time with that at least won't make you feel worse? Hopefully make you feel better.

If Possible, try to stay away from people you know will make things worse for you.

I wish you relief, peace of mind, and yes, even Happiness.

Sometime later in life, you'll be able to help someone who is where you at now.

I hope this helps you at least a little.

And above all else...... NEVER GIVE UP!

[bluebrains in reply to FindingTheAnswers]

Thank you so much...I think that was exactly what I needed to hear. Just someone taking so much time in order to help me means so much to me right now. I thought about seeing a therapist for such a long time, but whenever things seem to get better I just forget about it and think that it was just a phase (even though I know it will come back again). Even my mother told me it is the right thing and now reading your answer helps a lot. I have seen a therapist a few years ago, just with a different issue and I don't really know if it helped much, but as you said it can be hard to find someone right to me. I'm taking medication right now (medikinet adult is the German name) and I think it really helps with concentration but sometimes makes me feel a bit numb as well (which is better than sad, but not perfect). I definitely think holidays have made things worse, but also not being able to meet new people, because university has been online since the beginning. I know deep down, that my friends care a lot about me and don't see me as a burden of any sort, but knowing it deep down or believing it are unfortunately very different. I think therapy might help me with that as well.To be honest, I didn't really consider myself as depressiv, but I guess you never really do/ what to believe there is something wrong with you. So thank you for sharing about your depression and even though I wish nobody else was experiencing what I am, it helps me going on and trying to get better. I think the worst part of it all is, that I thought I could cure myself somehow and just kept telling me that everything was fine and feeling lonely and like you could cry all the time was just normal at this point. I'm starting to realize that it can be very different and I hope it will.

Sometimes I feel like giving up might just be easier and all that is keeping me in reality are all those people that I love, that help me and try to support me the way they can, even though none of them really understands my brain (which is obviously very normal and I am glad that they don't know the feeling). I just don't know if I was still here without them. I think it also took me so long looking for a therapist, because I'm afraid of the diagnosis, but knowing is always better than accepting the miserable feelings.

Thank you so much and I really hope you are doing bettering don't give up either!

[Add2021]

Crippling depression

[Gettingittogether]

Sounds like depression. I fell into one of those holes in college. Awful. You doubt anything good ...

Get to a therapist ... and consider medications ...

[Eyespy]

I feel like this all of the time

[OliveWill]

Connections to people and pets, if you have them, are key. If you have time, volunteering or helping someone or a cause you believe in will help. Good luck- remember covid is realistically intensifying everything. A therapist will help you reframe and get perspective.