Adhd daily life?

[Davedisco30]

Hi guys, just thought I’d sign up see what people’s thought were, long term suffering of anxiety & depression my low can go from zero to explosive at myself or something in a second. Only diagnosed with this in the last 4 years but always been down & worried with a lot of other things from a young age but I’m good at hiding it or don’t spend a lot of time with people when I was younger.

So recently or past few months my mind has been unbearable, to being bored of life and tired with everything. Can’t keep an attention span on any of my work or my interests when I finally do get round to it but can’t be bothered with them much, if I do get into a tasks it starts another task until I’m fed up of getting nothing done.

Got almost halfway through thinking/ writing through my childhood and daily symptoms for psychiatrist but got bored, still not finished it and that was with determination.

Second symptom that shouting out is not being able to wait in traffic or queuing. Driving home I’m angry at everyone for not moving quick enough. This was also apparent when my last job I travelled quite abit so airport queuing for baggage, security and boarding. There was times I would be wanting to just leave the airport and tell work to f*ck off.

Not being able to settle at night or always rubbing my fingers together for hour or 2 no stop.

Then even if I had wasted a day of not getting anything done for example one time I remember I just started at 2:30 in morning to fix a leaking tap then went out to the shed to see what else I could do.

Spoke to a psychiatrist but wasn’t actually fully truthful, just couldn’t be bothered getting into it all. Was more concerned explaining how my daily life was at present. Diagnosis was I didn’t have it.

Hope I haven’t bored you guys to death with read, just look on some thoughts?

[Jace1973]

Diagnosed at 36, 48 now, suffer seasonal depression as well as longer bouts where there was a trigger. Just came out of a year long depression battle stemming from child hood trauma triggered by bumping into my abusers brother, good times. Didn't know I was depressed, tried to battle alone, didn't talk to my wife, downhill from there, nearly cost me my marriage for the second time. We're working through things now, not sure if we survive it, ball is in her court. Anxiety bouts come and go, hard to get through but thankfully don't last longer than a day, unlike depression. Depression can be the result of other things, battling ADHD symptoms, past trauma not dealt with. ADHD meds really helped me, in all facets of life, it was a 3 month adjustment to the meds that was rough, followed by 9 months of dialing in the dose. I would get a second opinion, speak to a psychiatrist that treats ADHD and speak to a therapist who understands ADHD to help you sort out the depression. Therapy has really helped me with this latest rough patch. Exercise and diet also helps a great deal. Hope any of this helps, keep pushing.

[HeyImNotCrazy]

It does sound like you have a bad combo of anxiety/depression/adhd symptoms I can commiserate a lot as I have all three as well (I call it the social anxiety hat trick lmao).

I second Jace1973 when he suggests getting a second opinion from a psych/doc who specializes in Adult ADHD, a lot of non specialists in the disorder are very dismissive of adults who come to them for help because even in the medical community a lot of people think of ADHD as a "kids thing" that people "grow out of" (what BS).

If you have trouble being honest in a 1-on-1 setting you could try teletherapy or chat-therapy, the extra layer of separation made me feel safer talking about shit and made it easier to not gloss over or lie about things that had happened to me.

Sadly ADHD/Anxiety/Depression are all co-morbid conditions that, like a snake eatings its tail, all sort of feed into one another. Your ADHD symptoms make you anxious, your anxiety makes you more depressed, your depression feeds your ADHD. It's shit all the way down to the foundation sometimes. Treating someone with a hat-trick like us can be hard because its difficult to pinpoint where you need the most help, but don't give up and don't let a doctor gaslight you into thinking you are wrong. We live in our bodies every moment of every day, they only see us for a few hours a year at most.

Keep your chin up and remember you don't have a to be a superhero, it's alright to be sad and afraid and unsure of what your life is or what it will be. You are not alone in your struggles, we have your back! 💪😉