I wrote this thinking I wouldn't post it - but here goes:
After decades of coping, I finally saw a psychiatrist and my suspicions were verified - in addition to PTSD from childhood abuse, depression, and anxiety, I have ADHD (combined). While it's a relief to address ADHD head-on, it's also challenging since my partner doesn't believe in the diagnosis. She struggles with understanding depression and anxiety as well. For her, it's easier to see behavior as a choice and one should just make other choices. She also sees many of the symptoms as normal or my feelings/experience as blown out of proportion. It's very discouraging.
I'm currently struggling with depression, so I'm struggling to shower, I'm sleeping too much, not doing chores, and am unable to get motivated. It's so frustrating. I'm ashamed and want to do more - so I called my psychiatrist for help. After the call, I felt better - then my partner shot me down asking what my plan was for getting "back into the swing of things"right away but was negative about medicine. Ugh.
I don't know that I need much more than to havea place to voice myself - I appreciate this forum and the folks.