just diagnosed, started on 10mg XR last week - took it in the mornings with food. Best way I can describe it is 6 days of mental torture. Feeling weirdly calm and slow, yet my heart was thudding in my chest. I felt completely incapacitated, didn't even want to watch netflix. Tired, rather than wired. No increase in focus. And the worst part was how it amplified my depression. For the first time in my life I had thoughts of self harm (not suicide, but I remember thinking, what if I just gave myself a little poke with a kitchen knife right now - would I stop crying?) Which obviously really alarmed me. So many crying fits. I just felt sad and hopeless all the time.
My doctor had wanted me to try it for 2 weeks before we reevaluate, and yesterday - day 6 - I thought, how am I possibly going to get through 8 more days of this? I just can't do it.
And then I had a panic attack. My first one in 4 years, since I was diagnosed with anxiety and panic disorder, and put on 20mg of Prozac, which I have taken every day since. Prozac did wonders for my anxiety, although lately I have realized I have depression (hence going to the psychiatrist, where I got diagnosed with not only depression but ADHD). Since I started taking it, I thought it was no longer physically possible for me to have a panic attack. A couple of times, I have felt triggered and *almost* there - but no attack. Until I started taking Adderall.
Note: I called my doctor this morning and waiting for her to call me back, so I know she will be able to help me. I didn't take it today and don't plan to again. But god damn. This has been one of the worst weeks of my life. I would really like to find medication that works.
Has anyone else ever felt like this on Adderall?