second spiritual awakening, ahggg, can u relate!?

[58inahurry]

Ok, i"m gonna try to relate to you what has happened to me since my diagnosis and subsequent treatment. In the 40ish yrs since adulthood really arrived i have frequently delved into what i"d loosely term the " spiritual life and got some fascinating glimpses along my paths. Enough cosmic feedback to fortify me and hold me close. All well and good, then i became an addict at age 30 and the spirit was forced to tk a bk seat for 25 yrs for obvious reasons and i was crushed. B4 that i"d also taken part part in a 3 day pretty heavy duty relationships wrkshop which incidentally tripped me and span me off course, thinking i"d seen nirvana, truth and beauty all in one, i digress! Um, so, my soul was i guess simmering inside me, waiting? BBBBANG!! Diagnosis, medikinet, BBBANG!!! F ck me, all at once i find i am experiencing one relentless series of deep insights to the extent that its constantly shaping and shaking my foundations all waking hrs with flippin" goddamn revelation after rev" . i think i"m saying, Help!! Has anyone had sumthing even vaguely similar and if so, what did u do? I am making gd headway in realligning my life i humbly feel now, but is this a familiar experience? thankyou if u had the patience to read me

[Lovinit]

I not completely following you. What is your question again?

[58inahurry in reply to Lovinit]

hi lovinit, yes i'm sorry b'cause i seem to use too many words to get my point over and lose focus with my question. Really i wanted to know if anyone had experienced a massive change in personality after diagnosis and meds? I am a bit confused and need to talk skypewise to someone who can give me advice to calm me dwn. thanks 4 yr post!

[Lovinit in reply to 58inahurry]

Make sure you let your doctor know. It’s important. I did not experience a change in personality the first two weeks I felt a little different and after the initial two weeks I felt like myself again except I was able to focus better. Basically the after two weeks my side effects went away.

Do you believe it’s the medication that made your personality change or could it be something else? For example growing up I was pretty quiet and reserved but when I turned 28 I got a job at a brewery bar tending, working there got me to be much more outgoing and talkative with people. Now I can’t shut up. 😂. I’m glad you found this site and you’re sharing, this site has helped me a lot.

[58inahurry in reply to Lovinit]

Hello again lovinit, yes thanks i hear u about the doc, well yr quest' has made me think. When i say i have had a personality change i think i really am meaning that i have awoken after a long sleep caused by my isolating through my disgust and guilt at myself over my heroin addiction. Now i experience this release of mch of that and it is a powefrfully liberating feeling, this only over 3 months since diag' and meds have kicked in. Its a given that we all experience diff' things once we have benefitted frm a reveal, i can relate to yr ' now thy can't shut me up' in that you sound confident in yr progression|? Spk soon i hope!?