Won't go into all my good bad and ugly of rock-bottom ADHD, but I'm a work from home full-time artist stuck in a creative block that has me doing any and everything possible besides what needs to get done. Diagnosed ADHD 17 or so years ago, was on and off meds the first 5 years, but have been on some form of class 2 stimulant first with Focalin and now on Vyvanse at 70mg for the past 8 years. In the past, I was super happy on the outside and making GREAT work on the outside, but depressed as heck on the inside and not realizing how bad up and down my moods were. So I switched MD Dr. and got more aggressive to try to stop this horrible spiral, and just started Wellbutrin XL after old MD had me try Stratara ( that WAS HORRIBLE HATED THAT DRUG!!!) the good news is THANK YOU WELLBUTRIN!!!! Big game changer I feel much better, but creatively blocked stuck in the same stupid hyperfocused loop activities NOT related to what I know has to get done i.e. do your job (that I love and enjoy doing)!!!!. It's like an angle on one arm "NO DON'T TOUCH THAT it's on FIRE and it's the LAST THING YOU NEED TO DO NOW!!! and the devil on the other "Chill out, yea it's on fire let's do experiments" next thing I know it's 8 hours later, nothing is done, except a new mess made that needs cleaning Pre-Wellbutrin I'd leave studio depressed as heck, but not now and wondering if I'm on too much and or the wrong ____ ? I see my new MD in 2 weeks but I want to pay and use an ADHD Life Coach to help end this BS, but not sure it's worth it if I am not ready to change with wrong meds in me. Anyone else had the same or similar?
Suggestions? Any input helps.
THANKS!!!
AB