Hello, I have so many different emotions today and feeling quite confused about my life and raising my 12 yo ADHD son as a single mom. Yesterday he had a lot of difficulty with listening, following directions and focusing on homework. He had plans to spend time with his cousin for a birthday dinner, but because of his behavior I cancelled. He completely lost it and had the worst meltdown I've ever experienced. He was screaming, crying, throwing things, banging his head on the wall and saying he hated himself. This went on for about 45 minutes until he got an asthma attack.
I don't understand why he over-reacts this way and am afraid he will injure himself. To be honest I was scared to fall asleep thinking he would attempt to hurt himself. In the past he has tried to stab or cut himself with a kitchen knife following one of the meltdowns. I find all the meltdowns occur when he does not get his way or a fun event is canceled due to behavior. They are becoming too much for me to handle.
I am 55 y.o., work full time and get little rest. When I look at myself in the mirror I see total exhaustion. Others always say I look tired. This whole ADHD thing is just too much!