tomorrow i have a delivery of a special back tens machine and a new gel to try which i know will be a waste of time as ever but i keep doing these things to prove im trying everything and my dr's need to step up their game. my mental health support worker says that my pain is very bad, theres nothing she can do, and wants to talk to my dr about more pain killers. its like a never ending cycle for almost 4 years. i find a manageable pain plan, i get my hopes up, a dr changes the plan, acts surprised when i get worse, only offers mental health support, mental health team cant do anything and refer back to medical dr's, over and over and over. surely its a waste of their time at this point.
ive given in and booked an appointment with an advocate because i need to realise that admitting i cant handle everything on my own isnt failing. im meant to be moving into a flat on my own this month, il be changing back to my home town, changing teams, and meanwhile would like to be able to trust the few people that say they want/can help me.
im so sleep deprived so sorry for the long vent but i need to get it off my chest to people who understand me