Hello, um, i'm 16 and have my GCSEs coming up in the next month and a half and the stress is really getting to me, as well as having 'friends' who make fun of me for not doing drugs, i'm almost always arguing with my parents and family and find myself really not having any enthusiasm in day to day life, and having no positive outlook on my future, career wise, and other.
I do have a girlfriend that means the world to me, she's almost like a safe haven from all the crap i have to put up with, but recently it's overwhelming, I've had suicidal thoughts before but managed to shun them away although i have self harmed multiple times, and tonight i cried for the first time in over a year, and during a recent talk with my parents i realised i really don't enjoy anything in my life, i have no hobbies and i don't enjoy any subjects at school. I no longer get invited to any kind of social gatherings and it's come to my attention that I've been slowly rejecting my friends more and more.
My dad isn't exactly a good father, I'm somewhat scarred by an experience i had where he and i were at a friends barbecue and he had drank a lot, he attempted to take me home but was barely able to stand, it ended with me knocking on a door in the middle of the night to get the owner to phone the police, and not long afterwards he was taken away. This will stay with me for a long time and i dream about it very often.
Honestly, i just don't know what to do.