Hi

Hi, first post here, little about myself, I'm a 43 ye old with a beautiful wife and two amazing children aged 15 & 13,

Three years ago I was diagnosed with AF a irregular heart condition, I've had a procedure to correct this, however it really hit me for six, I've become more reclusive and don't go far anymore, I've also been told they picked up something called nsvt on a 7 day heart monitor I wore, rushed in tests done and told all was ok, it's nothing to worry about as my heart's structurally good, however I've read on internet this isn't the case and that the prognosis for this is poor,

I've been living with this health anxiety for last 5 years or so, and it's got to point where I feel I'm in a very dark place at moment even to the point of thinking thoughts I never ever thought I would,

I hardly come out of bedroom, I know I'm making my families life a misery and hate myself for it, considering just leaving and not coming back so they can live a normal enjoyable life😩😩😩😩

[Derbyian]

Wow those are a couple of big hits. Congratulations to you for having the strength of character to open up and talk to us all about your problems and fear. I want you to know that I am here and thinking about you and hoping that things move forward for you, happy to chat more if that would help, otherwise I will just send out positive thoughts for you.

[Natsteveo]

Hi Hidden

I'm so sorry you are going through this right now and you have been through so much for such a your man with a family..It's understandable with the way your feeling and you are stronger than you give yourself credit for you really are... Derbyian has gave you some very strong support there...your health anxiety will be because you've had the procedure for your heart so it's only natural to fear anything related to your health because like you said it's knocked the wind out of you with your diagnosis....so anything you feel or read you will automatically fear the worst...Dr Google however my friend is the worst thing in the world to read on especially medical related as they give you the worst case scenario everytime I had to have therapy to stop me Dr googling that's how bad it got me too but please if you can stay away from it as it will only make you feel worse....your family will not think for one minute they will ever have a more enjoyable life without you being their I know you must feel your in their way but believe me you really are not ...do you have any breathing techniques to keep doing when your anxiety is risen to try and keep you calm

Whats the professional told you to do and do you have any machines to help you

Nat

[alfie19]

Please do not shut yourself away from your family they need you and support you when you feel so low. It is a very worrying time for you but make some time to have with your family who love you dearly. My father had the same condition who i loved dearly sadly he passed over and i miss him so much especially this time of year. Your children need you and as years go by they will have fond memories of you all being together. Be proud of what you have please change your thoughts around find a hobby or somethingbyoy can share with the family rise above any issues you have and fight back we all have health problems some more than others learn to start loving yourself more and think how lucky you are to have a loving and caring family cos that is what a lot of us sadly have not got. Wishing you and your family the best.