Lonely and bored, no escape

[kennyreilly]

I sent you a long letter, three paragraphs in length, last night. I should look in on your

department every day. There is no value in life, I am not going anywhere, can not

participate, so it seems. My father is very ill, and we are afraid he will leave us soon.

The house he lives in seems my only place to live. If he dies, where do I go ? I can not

afford the mortgage. My brother in law and my sister are not always warm with each

other, though they love each other, and been together for almost 30 years. I might

be another strong, male mind to move in with them, adding to the problem. I do not have the money to rent even a small apartment. Is there a group who can be open with each other, exchange stories and information? I have heard for my life, "it's

going to HAPPEN ! ! " "it's going to work out" "your going to be okay.

Life owes us nothing ! No matter how good we are, how well we play the game,

try to fit in, how much we give or wait. I have a Master's degree, I get along with

people on the acquaintance level, but there is only seldom anything firm. I

really have lots to offer, but nobody cares. Kenny Reilly cell 571/521-9861