taken ill and general

[anniebooty]

since last year my nan was very ill and was admitted to hospital a few times but thankfully she pulled through. Just very frail at the moment then her brother was taken ill unfortunately he didn't still to this day she doesn't know about her brother passing (but i think she must have a little inkling something going on).

then a good family friend who passed too then his mum was taken ill. Jut one thing after another then just recently my great uncle was taken ill and also he passed he was the only surviving member of my granddad's brother left. Even though there brother's there a spitting image of each other just brings back so much memory's

sister- Just recently we found out that her daughter was coming here to stay over the summer holidays. Bear in mind nothing was said to me or the mother directly it went through my older sister even though she will be staying with us. It's not like we don't want her to come it's just 2 things 1- she didn't talk to us directly not even asked if her daughter could stay for x amount of weeks NOTHING 2- she doesn't give us any money what so ever to occupy her daughter ( just not enough ) she expects us to pay.

I don't think she understands we still got bills to pay and other things to buy etc she also has these things to and pay. and she calls me selfish and to this day she takes the piss that I'm only working part time so i thought "i ain't having this so i messaged the daughter saying she could only stay for 2 weeks as the last 3 weeks of august we are busy and couldn't look after her etc. Then she had the nerve to ring the older sister (not us ) making out she told us what was going on and it was all agreed. yes all this happened but not too us directly it went through the older sister AGAIN

then i received a phone cal from the daughter asking what was going on and i asked her " are you asking on behalf or you or your mother "?? I could of strangled her lol. but anyway long story short the following morning our mother received a phone call from her daughter asking what me and her daughter was talking about etc. obviously the mother didn't say anything then she popped out with not so many words but that's what she meant.

she said " well if your not going to tell me what was said then i will tell my daughter not to speak to me" (so niece to auntie ) and she also said that " once Nan is gone i will not bother you with anything " i mean who bloody says that ?????

she's only saying that because she needs someone to look after her daughter and because we are not acting upon her command she's not very happy. well it's tough shes lucky that we're even looking after her Daughter

since all this crap been happening i just want some sort of therapy just stress realising. this comes to my nails MY HANDS who knew nails could do so much damaging if i don't have any nail varnish on i can't really do it but as soon as i don't i just have this urge. there's even times i just had to put nail varnish on so i couldn't do it. just to stop myself but sometimes that doesn't work i just do it eles where