So I was recently diagnosed as having depression and ptsd. I've been speaking to a therapist and although I've only had 3 sessions so far, I feel like it's helping - it feels good to talk about everything that I've been keeping bottled up for so long. I still, however, feel persistently feel low in mood, have little interest in things I used to enjoy and can't focus on my studies.
I recently went to see my doctor about a possible infection when he noticed that my low mood was worse than the last time I saw him so he asked me a few questions about my personal life, which made me very tearful, and after a short discussion about my therapy etc he decided to prescribe me sertraline. I'm not a medical professional so I'm not questioning the doc's decision but I've always been apprehensive of anti depressants.
I've been reading reviews of sertraline, particularly Zoloft, and a common theme of the reviews seems to be that people begin to feel 'emotionally numb' after staying on an ssri for a while. I'm worried that although it might make life more bearable and make it easier for me to get up and do stuff, it will eventually stop me from feeling strong emotions altogether. I want to get out of feeling constantly low and get back to living my life - I study maths and writing proofs or solving problems is extremely difficult when I'm constantly having depressive thoughts. I'm just worried that the meds will affect my capacity for happiness in the long term. Can anyone share anything about their experiences with SSRIs? Have they helped? How long did you take them for? Did they make you feel emotionless?