Ok,so I'm new here.Discovered this website accidentaly,but made an account just to ask this.I avoid asking or talking about these things,especially with strangers but I feel like I am going crazy and just need reassurance that I am not or confirmation that I am,in fact,losing it.
So I am in high school.Ever since I was young (9-10 yrs) I would create my own universe where I would go to at night when I couldn't sleep.Over the years,this has been getting worse and I would go there during the day whenever I felt bored or sad.Now it's gotten to the point where I feel like my day to day life is being interrupted constantly by these fictional thoughts,which always seem to represent what I want my life to be like at that time.I can still differentiate reality from imagination,but I am afraid I won't be able to one day.
I should also mention that I have no friends.The only people I talk to are my family.That's because I have a hard time keeping a conversation with someone going and I often come off as awkward.I don't really trust anyone,really.I feel like everyone is out to get me,to harm me in any way.
There's also the fact that sometimes I feel like I am different(in the good way),like I can do great things and be a damn blessing to this world.But other times I feel really useless and that this life is just pointless.
I stress over every little thing and whenever I walk past a group of people (for example) and I hear them laughing or talking afterwards,I instantly assume that they are talking about me.And then feel mad at myself for thinking I'm of such importance that people would wanna talk about me.And I always feel like something is wrong.Like everything is falling apart,even though things aren't going exactly wrong right now in my life.It's like there's a grey cloud I can't seem to get rid of.
Sorry for the long question but I really wanted to ask this.And hopefully get some answers from someone that knows what might be wrong with me,because I can't take it anymore.Most of these things have been going on ever since I was a child but right now it's worse than ever.