I'm 37 and have two children. Went through an extremely traumatic breakup from my wife (I'm (was) gay) of 9 years in May. Had a very low period in the immediate aftermath, but was doing quite well. I've been up and down since. But am really struggling the last couple of weeks. I have struggled with sleep the whole time, and have nightmares regularly. But they have got worse. I keep bursting into tears. Feel like I let my children down. Have a short temper with them which is so unfair, because they have found it all hard too. I went to the GP in the summer. Took some anti depressants but didn't like it. I wanted counselling, but the NHS decided I wasn't bad enough to warrant it. I might be now. Thanks NHS for making me wait until I'm more desperate. I'm finding work hard. I'm unmotivated and just don;t know what to do.