To not bore you all to much...I've had a royally shit year! I got married this time last year I couldn't be more in love with my wife still and my beautiful step-son who will be turning 4 soon..our family is great, I've lived with my boy since around his 2nd birthday and he calls me mum. I am a police officer, as is my wife, thats how we met. To sum up my 2016... 5 failed attempts of fertility treatment, finding out wifes grandad is a peado who fiddled with her mum and sister, elderly relatives heading for heaven, relocating, wifes ex filling for shared custody, debt debt and more debt and then to top it all off I got new line management who bullied, harassed and discriminated against me for being gay, taking on a primary care role for a child who isn't biologically mine and wanting help from OH....I ended up going off work sick with stress and anxiety for 2 and half months and then returning to work, it was a struggle as they wouldn't let me work within the advice given from my GP, eventually I changed that through OH. I was called names and made to feel worthless for needing to look after my son. I resigned and then someone said NO, don't give up the job you always wanted lets get you help, so I gave it my all, submitted a 'complaint' type thing and referred myself for counselling, which I am still waiting for... I couldn't cope the anxiety was so physical, I had panic attacks, not sleeping, stressing, crying all the time and very snappy! So I am off work sick again. Feeling lonely, down, worthless, isolated and in pain. My GP wants me to start a treatment of antidepressants, for many and various reasons I am against the whole drug thing...am I limiting my chances of getting better by not giving it a go?