I have menopause kicking my ass as well as thyroid. I’m having a bad day. I should put a sack over my head really and stay in a corner.
The thing that is upsetting me most today apart from the endless lack of energy and the constant aches, pains and stiffness in my joints and non-functioning brain, is that my private hormone doctor, who has cost me a fortune over 3 years and not improved my menopause (her specialisation) has a very brusque and bossy manner. She was better at the start. It’s as if she gets digs in because I’m not responding to treatment. She started me on Levo. last summer. I’m on 100 now because she didn’t increase me properly, due a retest in 3 or 4 weeks. At my last test (on 75) my TSH was 7.3 but free t’s midrange.
She talks continuously about the need for exercise. I can barely get through a day. I can’t breath properly when I feel really exhausted. I can barely walk for the weak and aching legs and painful feet. I can’t exercise! Her other peeve is that I have metabolic syndrome and I will get diabetes type 2 and worse if I don’t loose weight. She wants me to go on a low carb diet. I don’t want to do that because it was a low carb diet that started all my health issues. I was fit and well beforehand, but it broke me! She refuses to listen. She wants me on Metformin even though my numbers are not prediabetic, although higher than I’d like.
I feel bullied by this. They look at me like this gross body is my fault for being a greedy, lazy slob. I was nothing of the sort. This all happened so fast and all because I was trying to loose a half stone that wouldn’t shift with calorie counting. Do they not understand how I long to run, walk, ride my bike, dig my garden, continue my cottage restoration and dance again?
If she could relieve the horrible menopause and keep going with my thyroid treatment maybe I will feel a bit more normal at some point, when the first thing I will do I say exercise and calorie count. But I just feel too unwell like this. I’m sick of being made to feel like it’s all in my control. She even said that to me. I can take control of the situation by loosing weight. My TSH is too high to loose weight!
Sorry. Just needed a rant. I felt a bit better yesterday and got some things done until 5.30 when the energy just left and I had to sit down for the rest of the evening. Today my eyes feel foggy, my head feels blocked and I just want to cry.