Really struggling since thyroid treatment with being me.

I seem to get everyones back up and have realised I have probably done it again on Seaside suzies post. I think I was much easier to get on with before thyroid treatment as I never had the energy to upset people. Itis not intentional it is just that I think differently to most people and it seems to mean than I am disagreeable to most others.I try my best to be diplomatic but people only seem to hear the disagreeable bits of what I say. It is not just on this forum. It has and is happening in alsorts of places in my life and I get really isolated and hurt by it butalso because my brain is functioning better I am much more aware of the problems. I wasnt isolated 3 years ago I was asleep.I dont want or intend to offend people but it seems to be part of who I am. I also work quite hard in my head to try to solve the problems and offer something positive but it all gets lost in the outrage about something I have said. My children like me thankfully but most people avoid.I dont think people actaully dislike me but I think they find me unpredicatable, different and maybe unsafe. It is allsohard for me to unpick. Anyway apologies to sea side susie if I cause offence or to anyone else whofinds me difficault. I am doing my best to be a bit less challanging for people but it willtake a bit ofwork and catching up. 30 years of untreated thyroid has left me way behind interms of maturity and self awareness. I might as well have been doped up on heroin or valium.

[humanbean]

My mood has often been erratic and unpredictable throughout life. One thing I have found that helps me is being gluten-free. My irritation and unpredictable mood has been much less troublesome since going g-f.

You might already be g-f, but if you aren't it would be worth giving it a reasonable trial. You never know - it might help.

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Thanks human bean. I have tried being gluten free a few times and it doesnt seem to help me. I dont have antibodies and it is not so much a mood thing as a personality issue. I havea very strong extrovert personality and people do findme overwhelming. I did a myers briggs test and I am a commander with the samepersonality type as Putin, Margret Thatcher and bloody trump.God help me and everyone that knows me. It was alright when I was asleep all the time. I also care hugely about people and things like this forum and sometimes I think I am a bit strong and over the top. I interfere with people and their lives and I know what peoples problems are and how to fix them. I am only trying to help and I know in theory thatpeople dont want my help but I dont seem to really see the boundries unless someone verbally points them out. Eg My cousins youngest son hasbeen made redundant having had an apprentiship with carrilian. I have been trying to find him a new one. Who else bloody behaves like this. I have 2disabled boys of my own.My own health is crud to the point of worse that my eighty four yearold freind. Iam trying to set up a business in my local park and Iam going througha very difficault divorce.You would think I had enough on my plate without interferring like a weirdo.My mum was determind that I was going to be a doctor after some strange behavior as a teenager, she said that very long hours and a legitimate excuse to point outpeoples problems and solve them for them would channel it nicely as long as I promised to leave her alone. She actually forced me into nursing as she decided it would be the best channel for me to train as a doctor. HoweverI fell asleep instead,draggedmyself through 20years of nursing in nofit state to do ituntill they retired me on sick grounds and now thanks to this wonderful forum I have been set loose on the world again. LOL mymum willl be turning in her grave.

Thanks for responding human bean and for all your help over the years. It helps me a lot to put stuff into wordsand to feel heard.

[Mary-intussuception]

Mandyjane

I haven't a clue what you are on about (not well enough to be on here all the time) BUT please don't put yourself down. Look at the positives, for example, you have lovely children and this is a great achievement.

I realise that I don't know you or anything else about you but what I do know is that you are Precious, we all are.

Hope you and all of us on here have a lovely, gentle and peaceful day.

God Bless xx

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Thanks Mary.A lovely gentle day sounds good. I am notreallyputting myself down as much as trying toface reality andIam very proud of some of the things I haveacheived in life. People dofind me difficault and I was worried thatI had upset a largenumber of people on the forum last night so felt I needed to acknowlegde my issue.

Thank you for responding and yourkindness.

[Treepie]

What did you do ,delete your post with SS' s long response? If so you need to explain to her. This post is undrstandable.

[crimple]

Being hypothyroid and having Hashis has certainly affected my brain and not in a good way. I do say things which upset people even though I try very hard not to.

I think we have to be a bit kinder with ourselves and also be ready to retreat and let the dust settle! My thyroid journey, especially this last few years has been very hard as I have had to get to grips with so many different aspects to try and improve my health with a manky brain! Just try and be patient, best wishes

[Clutter]

Mandyjane,

Your post on SeasideSusies thread wasn't offensive or disagreeable. It doesn't see to have got anyone's back up although some have said they don't agree with all your comments.

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Thanks clutter. I was worried that I might have offended everyone.