Hi I am new here.
I needed somewhere to offload so hope it's OK. I will probably sound like a Debbie Downer but I feel like I am starting to go insane. I have struggled with anxiety my whole life but since being put on Levothyroxine I have gone back to my worst times.
Brief history - My Mum has an Under active Thyroid and she had trouble conceiving me. So when my partner and I had been trying to start a family and nothing was happening we went to get some tests and everything was coming back fine..
However my Thyroid came back Borderline (around 6.5 I believe) so my Doctor asked if I wanted to try Levothyroxine to see if that would help incase it was the problem and after reading online that it could be a cause I said sure!
I had been having some symptoms for a while anyway and my mum always said I should get my Thyroid checked but it's something that always seemed to be shrugged off. So here I am months on and I feel a mess, I have not had a period since starting medication so feel even more frustrated! I constantly feel worried these days and upset. Now I am by no means skinny and a double chin is totally normal for me but it looks 3 times the size lately and today I noticed I have big teeth marks on the sides of my tongue (so freaking out thinking the worst).
The first make of tablets I was on helped - I started to feel less drained and tired and generally felt a little better. Then my prescription was due and the pharmacy gave me another make of the tablets and I started to feel bad again and then I have Just got ANOTHER make this time round and They Just seem to be making me feel crazy, I even feel crazy blaming the tablets surely they are all the same?
I am not sure my body can tolerate the constant change. My Doctor could not care less - I constantly feel like I am a problem when I go into see her because I have lots of questions I am never even given proper results from tests. How often should I be getting blood tests? When I was first being checked to see if the borderline got better or worse on its own she was supposed to see me 6 months later but she forgot and called me back in over a year later! Then said I should of arrange the test myself despite her saying she had to put the request in, she only did it when I mentioned it!
I don't know what to do. I don't know how I am supposed to feel and I now Just feel like this is my life now feeling like rubbish and being unhealthy at 31 is not much fun. My anxiety drives me wild like this is it now it will be one thing after another.
I am really sorry to rant and moan and I know its long but its 1am I cannot sleep and driving myself mad so really wanted to come and chat. I am over whelmed.