I was wondering if anyone had any suggestions on how to deal with what I have started to call The 6 stages of an 'Epic Mood Swing'?
I am Hypothyroid with Oestrogen Dominance and I am turning into a bit of a monster. I get so so angry and can't talk myself down from the ledge, it feels like I am two different people. It feels like a wave of anger coming over me that I cannot control. I avoid face to face interaction at work as much as possible and this is making my job harder and harder to do. Mainly though its my very patient, loving boyfriend who gets the brunt of it and when I 'wake up' I go into a shame spiral.
It usually goes like this;
Phase 1: Frustration - start to get annoyed.
Phase 2: Anger - The anger is starting to build - its physical I can feel my body getting 'hot'?
Phase 3: RED RAGE - I want to hit something/throw a chair/ break something
Phase 4: (Usually I have stormed off at this point) Realised how I have behaved - Shame, remorse, upset. Crying Fit- Uncontrollable crying, snot, running mascara, the works!
Phase 5: Can't Breath
Phase 6: Panic Attack- thoughts like "is this it?" "Is it always going to be like this" "I need to leave him, I'm only hurting him" etc.
Has anyone else experienced anything like this, and if so do they have any recommendations for how to temper it at least?
Any comments welcome!