After having my radioactive treatment in September I am now on 150mg of levothyroxine, after years and years of treatments of Graves' disease I feel like I'm going mad.. I used to feel what I thought was normal, I'm not an anxious mess, anxiety attacks, panic attacks, depression, I will not leave the house unless someone is literally dragging me out or I know I have to go to an appointment at the hospital but even then I'll be up for hours trying to pluck up the courage just to go.
Things are fine if I have an alcoholic drink on the anxiety side, but I stopped it off because when I was hungover or had a few to drink I was questioning my own existence, and I promised myself after one of my best friends killed herself when we were 13 that I would NEVER Evver get so low to have those thoughts...
I've started these antidepressants, martizipone or something? 15mg, which are helping with sleep with I am sooo thankful for! as I'd been up for days before.. and I am not as tearful when someone simply just asked me 'are you okay?' But the anxiety is ruining my life, I feel as though I'm stuck in this rut that's impossible to get out of.. I haven't been at work for nearly 6 weeks now but I can't bring myself to go to work because of the panic attacks of going there and being there.. I have this routine planned out to help me.. but it's still nearly impossible for me to leave the house my fiancé has left me because of all of this and says he wants to help and come back to me now but I know I need to sort myself out, myself.. Has anyone got like this?
I've only just turned 21 guys, I shouldn't be like this
Does anyone have any tips on how to help me out? With diets and lifestyle.. Or just to give me a pep talk! I feel as though people think I'm attention seeking but I've brave faced this madness for years now and I feel broken now
Just want someone to know how I feel to help me out a little